I find it hella funny that you accused me of flirting with others, of not caring like I should, acting like I don't give a damn, while the entire time, you're doing exactly that. You blame me for breaking your heart, while the entire time we were together, you'd do things or say things that would break my heart, yet each time I forgave you, because I loved you. Like the time you disappeared for a month without saying a word. Or how you'd be jealous of someone who only talked to me on mobsters. Yes, I fucked up, but if it weren't for your previous actions, I wouldn't have believed it. You tell me that I should have talked to you, yet you disappeared on me AGAIN. And even after we broke up, you gave me hope that we could still be together, if I could only regain that trust I lost. You say you're watching me, watching what I say so my words have to be guarded. Yet all the while you're in a pc with God knows who, on the phone with whoever you feel like being on the phone with, and I have to sit there and watch as you break my heart even more. Then I have to watch you proclaim your love to someone else?? What I did was no where near what you've been doing to me the past month. 

Huh?? No matter what I do, I'm wrong you're right. You've got every power to hurt me, yet I have to sit by and watch it all happen without reacting. Because when I do, there's something wrong with me...  I leave FKN BS, and join AMC for you. And yet everytime I'm in there, you're flirting your ass off. But when it comes to me you question whether or not I'm talking to someone else. IT SUCKS! And it's unfair. I know in my heart of hearts I'm doing no wrong, that I'm doing what I think will help regain your trust, but I'm not sure how much more my heart can take. It sucks sitting there watching others call you handsome, sexy, their babe, their this and that, hearing that you call them, and they spend more time talking to you. Then you turn around and say you love me so much, but forget to call me. You may not think it's real, but baby let me tell you... The pain is so real. And it hurts so bad.... I just wished you'd see.